A Day of Remebrance

Good Morning...

I know it's been a long time since I posted so I will give you an update on how things are going with my life. Back in May I posted that my mom and I faced being homeless but I am happy to say that we have moved into a nice apartment and things are better now. On the sad note my father passed away in June and in a way it's a relief. Now he's no longer in pain and is now with his family. He was the last of the children from his side of the family.  I started back to school last week and so far my classes are pretty interesting. I'm beginning to write the 2nd and 3rd acts of my screenplay in one of my classes and learning about the history of comics in my other class. Needless to say that class has been quite fun.
Onto the video. This song came out not too long after the towers fell. It's by Alan Jackson and the lyrics are heart wrenching and emotionally powerful. On this day of remembrance let us take a moment and listen to this powerful song and remember that our world did stop turning on that day. We as a country have grown stronger and have powered on but we have never forgotten what happened 16 years ago. I remember where I was when it all went down. I was in Texas at the time and my sister was sleeping on the couch, it was her birthday. I woke up and turned the Tv on in time to see the second plane hit. I was in shock and thought that it was a joke. Then I saw that this was live and actually happening I prayed that my sister wouldn't wake up.
As a person I have moved on and have tried leave the past in the past. But each day I am reminded of it. We will never forget what happened but we do need to move on and figure out a way to live again. There are disasters that have taken place in the last week, that's where our focus should be right now. First Hurricane Harvey hit TX then Hurricane Irma hit Florida. Both states are in dire need of help. The people and the animals are in need. I'm asking everyone out there to donate what they can to help. Let's pull together as a country and help those that need it now more than ever.
I have family in Florida and I don't even know if they are safe or not. I'm praying they are. Please lets take this day and focus our attention on the Hurricane survivors.
Anyways. That's all for now. I will try and post more often. Can't guarantee anything with schoolwork. This is Jeremy's Flame, out.

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   Good Afternoon. I know it's been a long time since I've posted. A lot has happened since my last post. I've gone into a pretty bad place right now and have no idea how to come out of it. This past February we had to put my dad in a nursing home and with him went our only way to pay rent. So now my mom and I are facing being homeless unless we can find a way to pay the rent here until another apartment comes available. I'm truly scared for the first time in my life. I've done nothing but cry for the past few months and that's not me. I fought cancer last year and won that battle, but this, facing homelessness really scares me. My mom went to the bank to see if she could get a loan and we haven't heard anything and I guess that's good news. I just need some good news right now. I've been dealing with a lot lately besides that. I started having problems with my right hand back in February. I developed what's called Overuse Syndrome and trigger finger. Well it got worse and started to affect my thumb. I developed severe trigger thumb and wound up going in for Physical Therapy. It helped clear up the tendonitis that had developed but hasn't helped with the trigger thumb. So today I finally saw a hand specialist and got a cortisone injection in my thumb . I won't know how things will be with my thumb for a few days to a few weeks. I'm trying to find another job that will be easier on my hand as that's what my PT said I needed to do. I don't know what we're going to do come the end of the month. I can't help but be scared and depressed. There were times that I had actually thought of just ending it all. But then where would that leave my mom and my cat. I know suicide isn't the answer to anything. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I haven't had these feelings since my brother died almost 31 years ago. I hate these feelings and don't know what to do. I know my mom is worried and stressed too and I hate seeing her like this. Each night that passes we get closer and closer to not having anywhere to go. All I want is to feel safe again and be able to know that things will be okay. I want my life back. I need that feeling to go away and to be able to feel normal again and safe. I want a better job. I am going up to the hospital next week to speak with HR to see if they will hire me. I have my resume I need to work on and get some Letters of Reference from different people. I have the skills they want I just need someone to give me a chance.

 

Anyways, that's been my life these last few months. It hasn't been easy and now things just keep getting harder and harder. Please send good energy my way and pray that we are able to find a place to live.

Signing off for now. Jeremy's Flame, out.